Including today; I have 12 working days left of 2014…I should be excited, however; I am not. The last few days I have not been feeling my “100% positive” self; which is horrid. Not just for me; but for the people (both students and staff) I work with. I had sold one of my Trading Cards sets on eBay two weeks ago and it fell through as the payment was blocked at the buyers end. The payment would have been half of my first payment for the Vietnam Internship. I am desperate move on; I am not happy here. I need to start my new life away from everything here. I have decided that I will not be spending much after the Holiday period. I know that I need to save as much as possible. I have worked out how to get to Vietnam when (or if) the time arrives. I just need to save some more Avios points; it is a shame that I cannot convert these Nectar points I have got. I may spend them on resources or things that I may need while I am away.
I also have not been well the last few days; chronic headaches and feeling nauseous. I think that is due to not fully enjoying my job. I have been thinking about my family more and what will happen while I would be away. My sister in law has a relative who has taught in China as a TEFL teacher and she said that he loved it. She was glad that the internet was available and she could contact them. This would be the same for me…I know that I can always send an email or chat on Skype. I really need to stop thinking about my family and what they would think and just think of myself.
I have no ties here; other than my family. I can always return to my current job (that is if I wish to return to it), my volunteering I can also return to – I have not really enjoyed it since my Mum retired from it in April – I can take my memories with me. That is all I need…
I really need to sort myself out. I have ordered a workbook from Leonie Dawson. I have ordered the Life and Biz workbook. I need to sort it all out. Leonie is wonderful woman; she lives in Australia and runs her own business. She is one crazy arsed woman, but she makes me smile and helps me to think of myself more. I found her via Jen Saunders at Wild Sister; who is amazing too! I know that buying this workbook I have spent money and not saving it; however it will set me and my goals alive ready for 2015. I feel that this is what I need currently in my life.